Fairly shitty. She lost! And she's super sore about it. She also feels like a super dick for betraying Shark (no feelings either way about the rest of Celeste and Cardinal can go hang) She feels like she was pretty honest and emotionally exposed in trying to defend Celeste in the Rejoice game, and everything she said got dismissed pretty quickly, and it hurts because she's tried pretty hard (for her) to throw herself into the idea of 'you are a team, put your team equal to yourself' and everyone else is like 'nope, blood relations are the only bond that counts,' she's feeling like it's all been a waste of time both in a bitchy way and in a secret 'wow i tried making emotional connections and see where that got me, never again' way. So, her outlook from now on is like sure, try to win games 'cause maybe that's the only way out of this place (not that she actually has any hope there is a way out--good ends should help with this?), but otherwise fuck everyone else I'm out for myself; if you need food or defense or other shit done, go ask Iris or Saffron or Canary, they're the only ones you care about anyway.

And of course it's all up in the air since it's still soon enough that she has far too many feelings that she loses track of some in her not wanting to think about them-ness, but this is where she's at right now.

tell me about excel and celeste v. saffron